Still Mourning

I am sad that I will never again get that secret smile and quickening in my belly when I think to myself "i am pregnant"

I will never again watch my belly grow and feel my body change and know that it is because a little being is growing.

I will never experience any of thenlittle things that go along with being pregnant nor feel the excitement of waiting to meet my child.

I will never hold an infant of my own in my arms again.

I am still mourning the loss of our baby and am mourning what might have been; what will never be.

We could not have been graced with a better kid than Little G. She is awesome and my heart swells with pride and love when I think about her or just see her running around. I know how lucky I am and for the most part that is what I focus on.  Yet, I am still mourning.