Monday, May 23, 2016

21 Day Walking Challenge - Day 8 of 21

Turns out it wasn't a great time to take on this challenge, but I have done my best.

I walked on Thursday, on Friday work was nuts  but I went swimming. Saturday was a full day of yard work, Sunday and today were spent walking around Niagara Falls and at a water park. It is Victoria Day weekend, which was very busy. Tomorrow I will get back to my regularly scheduled walk.

It has been a really fun weekend which we capped with a night in Niagara Falls.  It took us 4 hours to drive what is usually a 1 hour 45 minute drive.  We went to the Rain Forest Cafe for dinner, hit a bunch of souvenir shots and saw some amazing fireworks.  Then today we spent the morning at a water park.  It was great family time!

Back to work tomorrow... ho hum.

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

21 Day Walking Challenge - 3 Days down, 18 to go!

Little G insisted on joining me today; she didn't slow me down so I think she will likely be joining me I keep going. Last night we did a half hour of kids yoga together which was fun. I like that she is seeing me be more active.

My legs didn't hurt today while I was walking because I put my old shoes on.  I know now not to where those other ones anymore.

Until tomorrow...

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

21 Day Walking Challenge, 2 days down, 19 to go

It was an easy day to go out for my walk tonight.  Sunny, warm, but not hot, just a lovely day.  Put Tess on her leash and off we went.  I wore a different pair of shoes today and my calves were burning the whole time.

It was a much more difficult walk for me today. I am going to put my other shoes on tomorrow and see if that makes a difference or if I really am this out of shape.

I am feeling pretty even keel emotionally these days, but there is something going on with me.  I feel like I am at loose ends. I am searching for something new or challenging to do.  .sometimes I think of moving across the workd to work for a couple of years or on a smaller scale renoing our house or getting a new puppy.

Work is good, Little G is awesome, my marriage has its ups and downs, but there is something missing. I am working on finding out what that is.

Monday, May 16, 2016

21 Day Walking Challenge

I have had enough of being ginormous! I am overwhelmed by the amount of weight I have to lose and haven't been quite sure where to start.  I found a book called The Big Book of Walking for Weight Loss.  There are several different workouts in it for several different levels of fitness.  I am starting off with the 21 day walking challenge.  Every day for 21 days I will walk for 30 minutes. Today was day one and I rocked it!  I walked 2.4 km and felt great.

I am walking with the long term goal of losing weight, but really I am doing it for heart health and to feel fit again.

In other news, I am on cycle 4 of regular cycles. I am so happy I got over my stance of wanting to white knuckle my way through things and asked for medication.  It really has me in a good place emotionally.

Anyway, that is just a quick catch up from me.  I am hoping to have a daily entry while i complete my challenge.

Monday, April 4, 2016

45!

I know it's been a while since I last posted.  I haven't had much to say.  Things have been very hard for me since the miscarriage last year.  I was in a dark, anxious place and was having a really tough time pulling myself out of it.  I hadn't had AF since the cycle right after my mc last May.  I was walking around anxious that I was going to have a heart attack and die. And, the pounds have just piled on. It was awful.  I finally went to my Dr and was prescribed Anti-anxiety meds. She also said I was extremely low in vitamins D and B12. Well, after a couple of months taking the drugs and the supplements I am finally feeling like me again.  The anxiety is almost gone, the health anxiety is almost gone and AF has returned.  Crazy, right?!

For the most part, I have moved past the mc.  I still get sad sometimes and when that happens I acknowledge, feel what I need to feel and then move on.  I am getting there.

H and I will be celebrating our ten year anniversary in the fall...Around Valentine's day, he gave me a new diamond engagement ring.  It is truly beautiful and I love it (and him for keeping a promise he made to me when we got engaged).

I am writing because I am turning 45 tomorrow.  I cannot believe I am this old; time just flies by.  I am not sure how I feel about this birthday. Ambivalent at best.

Anyway, I don't know if anyone checks in on my little corner of the web anymore, but if you do know that I think of you often.




Monday, January 4, 2016

Happy New Year!

It has been a while since I last posted.  Little G celebrated her 5 th birthday on Dec 23 rd.  She is her own amazing person now. There is almost nothing of the baby she once was left in her.  I am trying to soak in every minute with her because everything seems to be moving so fast.

My heart still aches knowing there won't be anymore children for us, but a little less now than before. I am trying to focus on what our future holds.  Where will we be a year or ten from now?

I have started an online certificate in Human Resources; I think that may be my next big move.  We are going to Jamaica in February. There are things to look forward to.

I will be 45 in April. How the heck did that happen! I am experiencing the effects of getting older. Pains where there were none before.  I am the heaviest I have ever been which disgusts and infuriates me.  But, I have not been in a good place this last year, so I am tryong to be kind to myself.

I am not sure what awaits me in 2016, but I am open to the possibilities.

Monday, September 28, 2015

Looking Forward

I am really trying to look forward and to make steps to changing myself. It's tough. I feel like I have split personalities. Half of me is eager to live a healthier life, be active and feel strong; the other half of me lacks motivation and sits on the couch watching tv. Guess which side is winning?

I am making steps to move forward; I have joined a group that focuses on 6 small habits that contribute to creating consistency and a non-judgmental relationship with food. The first habit is to commit to tracking what I eat for two weeks - it's not about whether I'm eating too many/not enough calories; it will make me aware of what I'm eating and when.

I am looking forward to seeing how it goes.

Speaking of looking forward, I have a girls weekend on the 24th of October. That is the weekend that the baby would have been due. I am glad that I will be surrounded by friends (likely full of alcohol) to pass that awful weekend.