Today is my 49th birthday. Social distancing doesn’t allow for much fanfare at all. My aunt stopped by and left homemade cinnamon rolls on the porch and then she went back to the curb and sang me happy birthday. We had a FaceTime call with my parents and my brother and his family. Last night I had a zoom call with some friends and played online cards against humanity. It was great to see everyone.
The weird thing is that last night I ran fever. I was sure I had the virus. Then today my temp was completely normal. I think it was a psychosomatic fever. I had gone out to pick up groceries that I had ordered then I had to stop in a store to pick up a few items. The store allowed too many people inside and I felt unsafe. I have been terrified that I am going to get this thing and that it will kill me.
Add that stress on top of the stress of being out of work (I got a rejection notice yesterday during the day). And then add in having to be cooped up in a house with a head strong child that is flexing her independence and a husband that has been sick or injured for the last 3 months. I don’t think I have been handling my stress very well.
So I am going to add some meditation into my day and try to figure out how to get a little more exercise as well.
Sunday, April 5, 2020
Wednesday, April 1, 2020
Coronavirus: Self-isolation Day 19
After downloading all of my emotions and feelings here the other day, I am feeling a little bit better. I also have been disinfecting my house very night with a bleach and water mixture which makes me feel more in control of things. I am also limiting my eating to the 16:8 hours that I have set out for myself. Which is just shorthand for having an eating window from 11am to 7pm every day. I am limiting sugary stuff but not really limiting carbs as a whole. If I decide I want to start doing that I will. But for now I am happy with how things are.
H’s knees are getting a little better and he is now able to do the mid-week pick up of my father in law’s pills. Which means he goes out once a week and I go out to pick up the groceries once a week. If I can limit my exposure I am hoping I can avoid getting this virus.
My goal for the remainder of the week is to get my assignment done for my HR course that I am currently taking, order a birthday present for my nephew (what is popular with 4 year old boys these days?) and figure our Easter chocolate and gifts.
Sunday, March 29, 2020
Coronavirus: Self-isolation Day 16
It’s been a while since I last posted, but I am having some feelings about this global pandemic that I need to work out. And since I have basically journaled the most difficult times of my life, I return to my safe spot to blather.
So, I am scared. I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes last year. I have basically been working on managing it by diet. And for the past few months I haven’t been doing a very good job of that. I am obese and have type 2 diabetes. So I am in the category of people who when they get Coronavirus they get it worse than the average person
This terrifies me. I have been cleaning like a fiend. My kitchen is cleaner than it has ever been. I
disinfect the door knobs, light switches, doors, basically any surface that we touch throughout the day. I have been the person going out to get our groceries, or running to the pharmacy for my father in laws prescriptions.
So any cough or stuffy nose I have sends me into a spiral of anxiety. I am manically taking my temperature every day.
On top of this my husband is just getting over shingles and has hurt his right knee. So he is hobbled and can’t really do our running around.
G is 9 now and in grade 4. She is at home since school has been cancelled indefinitely for this school year. So I am scheduling her time and trying to home school her.
Oh and did I mention I was laid off in November? The bank I worked for let 5% (2350) of its employees go. My package lasts until the end of April. So after that I will no longer be paid.
Just a little stress in my life right now. And it is all underlined with the fear that I will get this virus and die.
Oh but it’s my birthday next Saturday - so something to look forward to I guess.
Hmm I feel like I have just dumped everything out of my mind here. Kind of feels good!
I have to set goals for myself for however long we are in isolation. So I am going to fast 16:8 every day, limit carbs, get some movement in every day and try to stay sane.
How are you doing?
So, I am scared. I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes last year. I have basically been working on managing it by diet. And for the past few months I haven’t been doing a very good job of that. I am obese and have type 2 diabetes. So I am in the category of people who when they get Coronavirus they get it worse than the average person
This terrifies me. I have been cleaning like a fiend. My kitchen is cleaner than it has ever been. I
disinfect the door knobs, light switches, doors, basically any surface that we touch throughout the day. I have been the person going out to get our groceries, or running to the pharmacy for my father in laws prescriptions.
So any cough or stuffy nose I have sends me into a spiral of anxiety. I am manically taking my temperature every day.
On top of this my husband is just getting over shingles and has hurt his right knee. So he is hobbled and can’t really do our running around.
G is 9 now and in grade 4. She is at home since school has been cancelled indefinitely for this school year. So I am scheduling her time and trying to home school her.
Oh and did I mention I was laid off in November? The bank I worked for let 5% (2350) of its employees go. My package lasts until the end of April. So after that I will no longer be paid.
Just a little stress in my life right now. And it is all underlined with the fear that I will get this virus and die.
Oh but it’s my birthday next Saturday - so something to look forward to I guess.
Hmm I feel like I have just dumped everything out of my mind here. Kind of feels good!
I have to set goals for myself for however long we are in isolation. So I am going to fast 16:8 every day, limit carbs, get some movement in every day and try to stay sane.
How are you doing?
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